So I haven't used this page as much as I'd hoped. This year has flown by in so many ways.
It has been a process to figure out how to live life without a constant child to attend to. It has been hard to learn to deal with life stress without the pleasant distraction having a constant child brings. I have mostly settled into accepting life, and growing in my new role as Grandma.
I am ready to take a fresh approach to 2020. This may seem like business as usual. Fresh approaches are one reason I absolutely love New Year's Day. It's a day of fresh starts, a day I use to recharge by stashing away Christmas and thinking toward the future (and watching football).
I have stopped calling things resolutions. Resolution has almost a "fatal" feel to me, like the end of the story not the beginning. I prefer goals, things to work toward, things to improve. That being defined, here's some of mine for 2020.
Find The Good - my job and life can sometimes feel stressful (imagine that). Without a kid around, there's so much more time to dwell on the negative and overthink everything. So, I plan to work on writing a blessings journal again. It helped me in the past when my daughter was battling anxiety and depression, helped me focus on the good side. I'm hoping it helps again.
Get Up and Move - I always plan to lose weight, since about the age of 12. Now, I want to focus on weight and the active side. I'm getting older, but I have a whole new reason to get in better shape. I want to be around for a long time as a Grandma. I want to watch my little Elena-Rose grow into whatever she is meant to be. I have so much hope and love for her, and my daughter (and son-in-law) and I want to see where that future leads.
Just Go - I want to find joy in exploring again - new places to eat, new places to visit, hiking, odd road trips, even things happening around town. I don't want to stick to the old status quo. I don't want to use the "too tired" as a constant excuse. You only live once!
Find the Happy - My job is super stressful, and it doesn't always make me happy. I have been casually looking, but that's not even the happy I'm thinking right now. I want to find happiness in the worst of days. I want to remember why I thought this job would be worthwhile. I want to find that happiness in whatever situation I am in at the time - new job, same job, whatever. A job can't make happiness, but an attitude can.
So, that's it for now. Hoping for a new start and finding more ways to fly without a nest to support me.
